Archive for March 6th, 2008

We will not go East. Actually, think in my heart I knew it best to not go but he loves it and wanted to go. We went thru pictures from ’04 and he was so alive. Then I thought of that (lousy) cat. Actually, he is a wonder cat for what he does for my guy.

Appreciate all the comments left in regard to the post.

I had been planning a trip to see our sons (and our daughter-in-law!) but not so sure about that now. The hotel is too big and scary if he got away on me in the night. I guess their cameras would pick him up but can’t risk it.

Our nights are sometimes difficult and disruptive – both of us wandering around like drunks in the night – my drunken appearance from lack of sleep (honestly).

Anyway, as my Dad always said, “Carry on.” Ok, Dad, I will but darn, it’s hard. I miss you.

The track where I walk is finally free of snow – I park and lock the car, he stays inside and I walk 20 minutes. I can see him from any place on the track.

Last year he would read his beloved Hitchcock book and smile and wave as I trudged by – this week he doesn’t read and doesn’t acknowledge me. Once, I caught his attention and he waved half heartedly.

Tried to get him to do one lap with me – no go.

Slip sliding away, my Love.

Over the years of our journey, I have tried to put into practice what I’ve read.

Kind of flushed down the drain when he didn’t remember all our trips to the East together. (He did make two on his own when I couldn’t go – which may be what he is thinking of)

I have kept family pictures on a china cabinet by the kitchen table, hung the one of us at the ocean so he sees it everyday.

In the past, his brain has been one of the most active and challenged. I’m sure if a person does nothing, perhaps AD can creep in but certainly not the case with him.

Guess it’s better not to try to figure it out:)