Archive for May 26th, 2008

May I introduce myself, my name is Worry. I worry about everything. Today he is so mellow and sweet but all he wants to do is sleep and nap – so what do I do? Worry.

Breakfast at 1:30pm, napped, up about 5pm, had some dinner, watched 1 period of hockey and he’s back in bed. I turned the TV off thinking it bothers him but he said he just wants to nap.

I guess it is better – if he is sleeping, maybe his mind is at peace – I know one thing, he doesn’t have to function or make decisions. Our specialist said this, too.

But is he slipping away from me, how long do we have, will he be able to stay home for a long time yet, should I pack up and sell, should I move to the city about 40 minutes away or should I move to the “big” city and be near our sons, should I stay here til he no longer realizes if we move?

I gathered his suits together to give to the thrift shop – he protested, “I may meed those some day.” We have a great load of dress shoes, no longer worn. I chose a few favorite ties and tossed the others – difficult to do but couldn’t bear to see them on someone else.

Well, better go, I’m sure I’ll find something else to worry about:)

The young couple next door to us have been incredibly kind and helpful – yesterday, I heard a tap on the door – the young fellow wanted to borrow our mower.
Heard him start it and thought it sounded strange. It was because he was mowing our lawns. Trimmed after he mowed, also. Then he carried on and did his yard – nothing to it when you’re 35!

He invited Wayne over to play with the dog. The 2 guys sat enjoying sunshine and beer for a half hour. Phone rang and it was the fellow all concerned. Wayne wanted to take the dog for a walk and he didn’t know what to say. Told him I’d come get Wayne “to help me” and it worked. (He cannot go on his own – probably the dog would have brought him home but who knows)

Then invited for a beautiful ham dinner at my sister’s. Are we spoiled or what – and a plate to go.