Today was mechanical for me, I’m dwelling on our friend. The situation conjures up all the memories of Mom’s and Dad’s illnesses and passing – although the disease is different from their’s.

I know she is being kept comfortable, but I wonder how the “kids” and grandkids are holding up, how he’s doing going home to an empty house. Yesterday as we hugged goodbye, he burst out laughing, “I need a loaf of bread, where is the bread in here?” We laughed together and I pointed him in the direction of the bakery – she did all that.

Wayne did forget about 2 hours after I told him which is good – but I would love to reminisce about our good times and can’t. I wrote some memories down and that helped. I slipped today and wondered out loud if he’ll stay at the same home – then covered it up Ok.

Saw our good Doc today and explained that I had told Wayne – did I do the right thing? He said there is no right or wrong – thanks, Doc. This man is so great – I wanted to give him a big, inappropriate hug.

Shirl and Robin had us for a delightful evening – the guys BBQ’d t-bones, delicious and great company – my cell rang and I almost dreaded answering it for fear it was his call. I came home and closed my eyes as gmail popped up, dreading I’d see the update I fear. No word tonight.

Sorry, this is a gloomy post but that’s the beauty of bloggers -we can, or should be able to bare our hearts, whether happiness or pain. Thanks to all.