Archive for July 17th, 2008

I don’t really know how to word this post – I’m lonely for him and worried for him. He sleeps most of the day and night, like from 10pm til 5pm – unless I wake him. Lately, life hasn’t held much for him and he “sits” – just sits. It bothers me, I worry he’s depressed, upset, scared or maybe just slowly fading away from us.

Could wake him after 12 hours, per our doctor – but, I feel if he’s sleeping, he’s not trying to think or function. Maybe angels watch over him and he sleeps in peace. Seems so.(The angels did fall asleep on the job last night, though!)

His disease is affecting him more lately – he no longer reads the paper, doesn’t watch his favorite/only show and is turned off by the news. Biggest thing I see, he no longer reads his books. He goes thru them and asks, “Is this yours or mine?” Even it is mine, I say it’s his. Then his classic, “You can never have too many books.”

Food is the least of his worries, although, he eats what I set before him – to a point. It can’t be too much – this after almost 24 hours without a real meal. Try to get something like a smoothie into him at bedtime but he’s not hungry.

Is this the body’s way of responding to misfired messages?

Any suggestions?

Bleary eyed and overtired, I got up again when I heard the blind being put up – “What’s the matter, Hon?” He turned to me and said he didn’t know – sirens had been howling all night. He got up each time. I really didn’t hear a siren this time but was whacked from lack of sleep. Accidents, medical emergencies, forest fires?

Our neighbor is a volunteer firefighter and he answered calls all night – the first about 11:30pm.

We live in a very rural area, on top a ridge between 2 lakes, as quiet as can be – usually. We don’t even have street lights – yes, we do have a street:)

Anyway, we have a bedroom downstairs in the far corner of the house, diagonal to where ours is on the main. This morn I made the bed up and we’re sleeping there tonight.