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12th August
2008
written by JeanMac

So I woke him to prepare for our friend’s funeral and he wouldn’t go. She was special to him and I guess it was too much. Our friends had offered to pick us up but I canceled and drove myself.

It was weird to drive to the funeral myself, sign the guest register and chat with friends and family – alone. Felt kind of alone during the service although knew the people around me.

Too bad he didn’t go as many of the folk he worked with asked about him and would have loved to see him.

I think this is the first function that he would have been at and wasn’t.

6 Comments

  1. kenju
    13/08/2008

    Jean, I am sorry that you had to go alone, but maybe it is for the best. His reaction to all that may have been so strong that being there would have been horrible for him.

  2. annie's eyes
    13/08/2008

    Funerals are very stressful, especially if you are trying to be as normal as you can. I feel for both of you, Jean. I am glad you went for closure and to see familiar faces. Sadly, it was not with W. One foot in front of the other as best you can…Love, A

  3. Mary
    13/08/2008

    Funerals are dreaded by most people. I can’t blame him.

  4. Changes in the wind
    13/08/2008

    I commend you on going alone…….

  5. Bear Naked
    13/08/2008

    Sorry I haven’t visited your blog for a few days and sorry to read about your friend’s passing. My condolences to you both.

    Bear((( )))

  6. Laura in L.A.
    13/08/2008

    Jean, I’m sorry for the loss of your dear friend.

    I admire you for having the poise and courage to attend the funeral solo. I know that your bravery in doing so was not lost on your friends who also attended.

    Praying for you and W.

    Love, Laura