4th October
2008
The past several months I’ve been yearning to go back to work. This would be next to impossible to do, short of admitting him – and he’s no where near that stage. I remember these thoughts happened a while ago also.
I think it’s the stress of the 24/7 minus 8 hours:)
Anyway, meeting my ex-boss for lunch next week, just because. We’ve been friends since March ’80 and we need to catch up with the “news”. He has called me several times, just checking how things are and if I’m available to work. Sorry, no, unless something changes drastically in the next bit.
Guess I’m nuts, as people work to retire and here I am, yearning to go back. Anyway, that’s not going to happen.
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It’s not pointless to think about it, Jean. When the time comes that W has to be admitted,
you will want to work , I expect. If you keep ties to your old boss, then it would be easy.
I’ve got to tell you Jean that I am getting worried about you. When stress levels show through a blog post, things have to really be tough. At work you had interaction with adults and you had stimulating conversations, challenges, praise and raises. It has to be difficult to leave that behind for a “no thanks” existence. Once again I find myself looking for that magic wand to wave over you.
I remember going through a bad season (my divorce) going to work felt like a vacation. I can totally relate to what you are feeling! When the time is right, you will be able to do it. Enjoy your lunch with the doc. I’m praying for you!
Love,
Angie xoxo
Jean–I completely understand the longing for work. Work–especially when it is doing something we enjoy–gives our lives definition. Of course, other things to that also.
I agree–keeping contact with your former boss is good. You have a skill you can return to, when the time is right.
Maybe part time? Maybe someone to eldersit him while you work? He is already, apparently, accepting aides. Even if all you do financially is break even, might it be worth it emotionally, and also to keep your hand in?
Pat
Not pointless at all. I also think of going back to work and see the irony in that. I used to want to be at home. But now I would like to work part-time, so I could get out and socialize, do something productive for a change, and get a paycheque at the end.
I understand your desire to work again. Even those who are retired sometimes miss it – the social aspect, especially, and working the few hours you can handle. What I understand more is the feeling of “escape”? Stay in touch with your old boss, even if the option of working is not possible right now.