Archive for December 29th, 2008

He looked over toward me and asked in a soft, questioning voice, “Is it Christmas yet?”

Moments like this tear at the heart – I answered, “It is, Hon. See our tree?”

It satisfied him.

My dear man is still sleeping – he had a great Christmas but is worn out.

I’m sitting on the sofa, coffee in hand, watching a heavy snowfall come down. Put the deck railing lights on and the tree – it’s really beautiful.

Wish I didn’t have to know, but wonder what 2009 will bring. Still have not heard back from respite planner – maybe that’s a good thing. I was awake this morn, looking at him sleeping so peacefully, Buddy wrapped in his arms. How can I put this man in a care facility with “no me and no Buddy” – for a whole week!

Anyway, I have decided to let “what will be will be” – if it’s destined he should be in for a week, they will call. I will let a Higher Power than I decide. What really concerns me a lot is the fact he’s never been in a hospital except as a toddler – once – tonsils.

Worry, worry, worry – it’s what I do best:)