11th July
2009
Last night was so good, as good goes. I watched him laugh and take part in the conversation. It was so wonderful.
Time to go to bed, I tucked him in, crawled around to my side, “Who are you?”
“It’s me, Hon, it’s me.”
Used our code. “It’s me, Jean.”
He was almost hyperventilating, “Is it really you? I thought I’d never see you again!”
Breaks one’s heart.
Jean, you are both lucky that he still remembers you. My neighbor had to carry a photo and a small tape recorder of her husband’s voice to remember who he was. Eventually, she forgot anyway.
Jean–so sorry this time has come. You are right–it is heart-breaking. But the fact that you established a code, long ago, was so insightful. It has saved the situation quite a few times.
That is heartbreaking – I’m so sorry that you and W are having to face down this cruel disease. None of it is fair.
My heart broke too when I read this. He still does remember you when you say the code, thank God that you came up with the code. May he always remember you. No one should have to go thru what you are going thru. You are dealing with it with grace and dignity and showing the rest of us how to live with something beyond your control. Blessings…hugs and prayers….Mary Lou
Jean, I am certain he knows you deep inside. His soul and yours are one. Something in his memory synapse is not letting him reach that to retrieve it, but it is there. I am so sad for the trauma it must stir in you, the loss. I am praying for you this morning. Love and prayers, Annette
I don’t understand how he can still remember “the code”. This disease is so baffling and heart breaking. Thank you for sharing the ups and downs through your eyes, so that we might all learn…..just in case.
This really is heartbreaking. My heart goes out to you, Jean.
Hugs
yes, he knows you….he just forgets for a moment….at least that is my take. My mom would look distant to me…I would repeat that I was her daughter, she was my mother…then the light would come on. It just took a moment to register….
Your code is such an interesting concept. May I ask what made you and Wayne develop that?
i hate this disease, the up and downs of knowing and not knowing, the emotional roller coaster, take care
Ohhhh man….I hope that you both were able to sleep after that bombshell~