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So, I bought Wayne a small CD/radio player. Took a Jeff Foxworthy CD and a Beach Boys – did he ever enjoy the music and humor.

For several years before Wayne was admitted he no longer enjoyed the “noise” of music but appears to now.

I arrived at noon to hear that he wouldn’t eat lunch so I got him up and he ate lunch!*&!

Anyway, we had a nice time wandering around but I sensed an underlying restlessness or discomfort.

Back at his room, he lay down to nap and I sat beside him doing paperwork.

After about a half hour he leaned up on his elbow, a familiar, sweet pose I used to love. “I’m quitting this place.”

Not sure what to say, I tried to distract him and asked if he had a nice nap. He smiled sweetly and said he did and proceeded to discuss his “quitting”. Asked him what was going on – - – “They come in here and steal things, like food.” After much discussion, he felt they stole everything not nailed down. Pointed out the lock on his bureau but it didn’t comfort him – it’s not locked but could be.

Angels abound – his afternoon care aide came smiling inot the room asking how we were – he instantly changed to laughing and smiling – she mocked punched him and he returned it! Before he knew, she had his slippers on and he was on his way for a snack. I called her later to tell her how he was hallucinating – they will keep a watchful eye on him tonight.

Slowly, slowly I am losing him.

I joined him for lunch – - – one of the care aides came by and noticed that Wayne didn’t have his “apron” on – “Do you want one, Wayne?” As she walked all of 3′ to grab one, he said no. She laughed and said, “You never drop food like I do. How about I just lay it in your lap?” He agreed with a smile, a smile only I know but such a precious moment to me.

After she was out of hearing range he leaned close to me and whispered, “I like to humor them.” It was his smile that said 10,000 words and that dear smile of old.

So, there are days and moments of sunshine, it’s just the whole situation which gets me down. Sorry about the post yesterday but that’s how I felt. Dear friends you all are.

So our lives have been rather like a full fledged storm – thunder, lightening – you name it.

I’m very sorry to have not posted – I go to post and can’t bring myself to do it.

Kind of worried I may be getting depressed but have to shake this off, whatever it is.

*****A bit of good news – today was the first i na long time Wayne seemed to really “recognize” me and talk and be animated. One doesn’t appreciate this til it’s lost.